Malaysia, 16 February 2010
This afternoon i went to the clinic, to do some medical check up.
Unfortunately, the nurse told me i could not do that today.
"All lab are closed"
Huff...
Then, i ate my lunch (Mie Sarawak) it's quite nice, but honestly, i prefer Mie Terang Bulan in my home country or Mie Haleluya :) haha...
After that, i waited for the shuttle bus so i went to the Sunway Tower Hotel.
I saw many people went for holiday, people form many countries.
I was thinking.
Maybe, for the next few years i will do my internship in one of the hotel in Malaysia or another country.
And while i was waiting, i felt that i become more quiet and silent recently.
I often spend my time alone just going to the mall and sometime buying things.
Most of the time, i am surrounded with many friends, but i can't deny that i enjoyed being alone sometimes :)
In my room, i watched Music and Lyrics from Devi, my dear friend ^^
I love that movie! Really :) I love their song mostly!
Then i read the blogs. One of them is my friend's one, Yandi.
He wrote "lusi -->maunya sih fk ui tapi karena big boss gak terlalu suka di ui mungkin dia ngelanjutin di unsri..."
It brought me back to my past and i started review my life.
Yeah, it's true that my dream when i was a little girl is being a doctor.
And i have tried! But, still i don't know why i can't?
Maybe, it's not the best for me.
Then, when I flashed back.
Monash Foundation (1 year) Monash University (1 smester) and now i decided to do Hospitality in Taylor.
I have spent a lot of time and money.
I'm so sorry Mom and Dad..
I also can't deny that recently that guilty and regretful feeling haunted me.
But by that time, i refused to follow those feeling and thought.
I choose to think positive things.
At least i am did a good job in my previous years in MUFY and Monash and i know that's all miracle (thanks Jesus ^^)
I'm sure that God let me gone through all of this for a good purpose.
I have discovered some of them ^^ and it's amazing!
About my little dream being a doctor.
I don't know why, when i choose to do Hospitality, i never think about that again.
It's really different like when i was doing MUFY and MONASH.
Now, i feel that, Hospitality is my own choice and i love it!
Maybe many people (not all) think this course is not really good for me,
i still respect their opinion, but still i will follow my heart.
"Never look back and give the best", one of my senior told me.
18 Febuary 2010 is my first orientation in my second university.
But for me, this time is gonna be my real university life.
I know it will be tough for me to go trough this 3 following years since i have no friends that i knew before and my background is all science! haha..
And maybe for other people i am late, i start again from zero.
But, i remind myself not to be worry.
I keep telling myself that just believe to God's work in my life.
I believe that He will send me His Angel to guard me anytime anywhere,
including sending a good friend for me ^^
I know that i am not start from zero, but i continue my life to 11.
I know His plans for me is an awesome plan!
What i need to do is just surrender all to Him and be what He wants me to be.
So, Lucy, semangatt!! You can go through all this, dear!
Nothing is impossible, i believe!
